Sorry, i have had another one of those busy weeks, where you darent sit down for more than a minute incase something happens!
Well there were NO CARDS awaiting my face at the door on wednesday, god dam them, i was convinced that the postman had forget to deliver them or that the postman was posting in the afternoon, neither of my thoughts were to be correct.
i had previosuly been on a date on Monday night, and there was me thinking that it went really well, the lack of texts from there after made me think differently. I wish men would say at the end of the evening if they are interested or not, then i know not to waste my time or to bother texting them again. I had even sent him a boob pic of v.day to show him how much i thought of him, and the rude git didnt even bother to reply!! well sod him then, ill take my boobs elsewhere
so v.day was a slightly different day for me, as i took my lovely lady Donna out to the cinema, we had a blast, and i think she is keen to do it again sometime ;) yipppee ive pulled . he he
not alot else to say today, as i am just angry with all men, so that makes life alot easier
Saturday, 17 February 2007
Wednesday, 7 February 2007
Men
Men, i just REALLLLY dont get them!
What is it with taken men? i always seem to be he one that attracts the guys who have ladies, or are engaged. What am i to them? a bit of wank material, i obviously am :( I dont wanna be that, they must be attracted to me but they are going to have to keeo their cocks in their pants, as this pussy aint open!
But my problem is, i guess, that taken men appear to me being more attractive, i guess its cos they are taken , it makes me want them more! God dam it!! it makes it soo hard, i cant help but text them back cheecky, flirty texts! Its all a game to them, but i still cant get my head around that fact, i never learn i just get hurt!
Then the guys that say they like me, i just dont fancy! Maybe i am picky and not seing beyond the looks, but no matter what anyone says EVERYONE looks at the persons face and clothes first, and in those 3 secs you know whether you like them or not. I know thats harsh, but thats life! Men probably think that about me too, and that is, i guess, why i am single!
An ex is still texting me at the moment, we broke up because he started to bug me, and he also had problems with himself. He was ready to be in a relationship, that is all fair enough, i jumped in too and shouldnt have. But now i cant help but text him dirty messages and things that i wanna do with him, but when it comes to the crunch and he asks me to meet him, i cant do it. I know i ended it cos i didnt fancy him, but these thoughts are still in my head.... it must be the lack of sex, makes you want it with anyone
Hugs and Snuggles== these are totally acceptable, it does NOT mean that we are going to get back together, or that i fancy you.... men please take note of this!Every girl loves to be hugged, i am no acception, i love a good warm hug, makes me feel wanted.. but thats all i want it to be
i guess i am just greedy, i forget that they may still have feelings for me, but i cant change mine.
Texting these kinds of messages to people when you are drunk, isnt acceptable either, and i know i am guilty of this crime, and i repent! I will try and not text work collegues or any guy suggestive texts when i am drunk .... can i be forgiven??
xx
What is it with taken men? i always seem to be he one that attracts the guys who have ladies, or are engaged. What am i to them? a bit of wank material, i obviously am :( I dont wanna be that, they must be attracted to me but they are going to have to keeo their cocks in their pants, as this pussy aint open!
But my problem is, i guess, that taken men appear to me being more attractive, i guess its cos they are taken , it makes me want them more! God dam it!! it makes it soo hard, i cant help but text them back cheecky, flirty texts! Its all a game to them, but i still cant get my head around that fact, i never learn i just get hurt!
Then the guys that say they like me, i just dont fancy! Maybe i am picky and not seing beyond the looks, but no matter what anyone says EVERYONE looks at the persons face and clothes first, and in those 3 secs you know whether you like them or not. I know thats harsh, but thats life! Men probably think that about me too, and that is, i guess, why i am single!
An ex is still texting me at the moment, we broke up because he started to bug me, and he also had problems with himself. He was ready to be in a relationship, that is all fair enough, i jumped in too and shouldnt have. But now i cant help but text him dirty messages and things that i wanna do with him, but when it comes to the crunch and he asks me to meet him, i cant do it. I know i ended it cos i didnt fancy him, but these thoughts are still in my head.... it must be the lack of sex, makes you want it with anyone
Hugs and Snuggles== these are totally acceptable, it does NOT mean that we are going to get back together, or that i fancy you.... men please take note of this!Every girl loves to be hugged, i am no acception, i love a good warm hug, makes me feel wanted.. but thats all i want it to be
i guess i am just greedy, i forget that they may still have feelings for me, but i cant change mine.
Texting these kinds of messages to people when you are drunk, isnt acceptable either, and i know i am guilty of this crime, and i repent! I will try and not text work collegues or any guy suggestive texts when i am drunk .... can i be forgiven??
xx
7th February, 2007
ok ok..... i apologise!!
I have had such a busy week that i have been unable to get onto the tinternet.
Well over the last week i have been thinking alot to myself, and looking at the way i have been acting, i really should no better. So what if i havnt had a shag since Dec, it doesnt need to be a bad thing, it gives me time to spend with my mates and enjoy myself. I mean its a good thing really:
1) dont need to shave hairy arms, legs or malaries! (pussy to the non- hilarys)
2) burp and fart as much as i like, i dont give a shoit, i have no one to impress
3)I snog as many men as i like and not have to feel bad about it
LOVES IT!!!
Well back to me feeling annoyed, and ashamed at myself. I have been biggin up last weekend all week, and when the day came i was all prepared ( no i dont mean condoms and lube!!) I had gone shopping during the day with my best buddy, Donna. We have trawled all the shops looking for our hot new outifits, and with luck we did. By GOD did we look hot..... thats the moment it all went down hill...
The evening had arrived, met up with my lads and and Hayley, armed with a bottle of coke and a bottle of vodka, we merrily swigged the bottle of our pre-party spirits. To make sure our stomachs were fully lined, we had a spoons dinner ( cheap and cheerful) but the addition was the bottle of wine, it was all down hill from there.
Most of the evening was a blur to me, Donna and Hayley wernt as drunk as me, so i guess i was the evenings entertainment. Donna was on the pole, so we decided to jump on up to join her, having a wail of a time, Donna left me and Hayley on there. There is one thing i would like to say to all the ladies that wish to poledance, please WAIT until the pole is actually free before jumping up. Me and hayley got pushed off but some slags in short skirts, well hayley actually did literally fall off, and the image is STILL in my head ,and cos of this i gave the girls an ear bashing telling them to bloody ask next time as it was rude! GO ME!!
The night went on, and more bottles of wine were drunk, dear me i was indeed a state! I remember telling Donna that i loved her and that i was gunna be her maid of Honour lol, i think that shocked her. after that the night becomes less memorable ( as in i cant remember)
i remember dancing with Hayley, and a guy dance behind me, i have NO idea whatsoever what he looked like, but we ended up snogging QUITE alot, again i dont remember much, but i know he was a SHIT snog, he tried to finger me but i remember saying to him that i had to go, he mentioned something about a car, but again i have no idea .
The night went on, me getting drunker and drunker.... then i felt alone and sick, told my mate James that i needed to go outside, and i burst into tears
The next thing i know i am at home with James asking me if i need a lift to my house. I dont know How i got into his car nor do i remember falling asleep
FUCKING PISS HEAD!!!!
I have had such a busy week that i have been unable to get onto the tinternet.
Well over the last week i have been thinking alot to myself, and looking at the way i have been acting, i really should no better. So what if i havnt had a shag since Dec, it doesnt need to be a bad thing, it gives me time to spend with my mates and enjoy myself. I mean its a good thing really:
1) dont need to shave hairy arms, legs or malaries! (pussy to the non- hilarys)
2) burp and fart as much as i like, i dont give a shoit, i have no one to impress
3)I snog as many men as i like and not have to feel bad about it
LOVES IT!!!
Well back to me feeling annoyed, and ashamed at myself. I have been biggin up last weekend all week, and when the day came i was all prepared ( no i dont mean condoms and lube!!) I had gone shopping during the day with my best buddy, Donna. We have trawled all the shops looking for our hot new outifits, and with luck we did. By GOD did we look hot..... thats the moment it all went down hill...
The evening had arrived, met up with my lads and and Hayley, armed with a bottle of coke and a bottle of vodka, we merrily swigged the bottle of our pre-party spirits. To make sure our stomachs were fully lined, we had a spoons dinner ( cheap and cheerful) but the addition was the bottle of wine, it was all down hill from there.
Most of the evening was a blur to me, Donna and Hayley wernt as drunk as me, so i guess i was the evenings entertainment. Donna was on the pole, so we decided to jump on up to join her, having a wail of a time, Donna left me and Hayley on there. There is one thing i would like to say to all the ladies that wish to poledance, please WAIT until the pole is actually free before jumping up. Me and hayley got pushed off but some slags in short skirts, well hayley actually did literally fall off, and the image is STILL in my head ,and cos of this i gave the girls an ear bashing telling them to bloody ask next time as it was rude! GO ME!!
The night went on, and more bottles of wine were drunk, dear me i was indeed a state! I remember telling Donna that i loved her and that i was gunna be her maid of Honour lol, i think that shocked her. after that the night becomes less memorable ( as in i cant remember)
i remember dancing with Hayley, and a guy dance behind me, i have NO idea whatsoever what he looked like, but we ended up snogging QUITE alot, again i dont remember much, but i know he was a SHIT snog, he tried to finger me but i remember saying to him that i had to go, he mentioned something about a car, but again i have no idea .
The night went on, me getting drunker and drunker.... then i felt alone and sick, told my mate James that i needed to go outside, and i burst into tears
The next thing i know i am at home with James asking me if i need a lift to my house. I dont know How i got into his car nor do i remember falling asleep
FUCKING PISS HEAD!!!!
Thursday, 1 February 2007
1st February
Pinch, Punch, first of the month... and all that crap!!
Having a shit day today, yes i know all i seem to mention is sex, but going without it , is like being told that your allergic to choccies!! I cant do that!
Work is going really well, but its hard to concentrate when i can see Mr. Armani from across the path, he is still as Gorgeous as ever and by GOD is it hard to be angry with him.
I am very tempted to start doing a sports class in the evening to make me take my mind of the lack of sex in my life, maybe pole dancing will do the trick. it will be the biggest pole i have felt for a while. I think its all down to the fact that i am not confident in myself,and that shows on the outside, men must be able to see this...
so.... i am going to have to change, god knows how ill be able to actually "pretend" i am happy and confident, when i am really supposed to be like that... eek
so from now on, new month and new moi
ok guys, no sex on the first date , a hug and a kiss on the cheek will do fine
xx
Having a shit day today, yes i know all i seem to mention is sex, but going without it , is like being told that your allergic to choccies!! I cant do that!
Work is going really well, but its hard to concentrate when i can see Mr. Armani from across the path, he is still as Gorgeous as ever and by GOD is it hard to be angry with him.
I am very tempted to start doing a sports class in the evening to make me take my mind of the lack of sex in my life, maybe pole dancing will do the trick. it will be the biggest pole i have felt for a while. I think its all down to the fact that i am not confident in myself,and that shows on the outside, men must be able to see this...
so.... i am going to have to change, god knows how ill be able to actually "pretend" i am happy and confident, when i am really supposed to be like that... eek
so from now on, new month and new moi
ok guys, no sex on the first date , a hug and a kiss on the cheek will do fine
xx
Wednesday, 31 January 2007
31st January 2007
MMMM what an interesting day i have had.
I am getting to the stage now where all i can think about is sex, sex with ex's and sex with anyone that gives me a wink or a smile. I know that sounds like i am desparate ( well that is slightly true) there is only so much you can do by yourself on a friday night.
I am constantly on the look out for someone who tickles my fancy so to speak, i am not overly bothered by the looks, as long as i not only get a good seeing to , but that they dont jump out of bed , grab their clothes and leave after the sex! I would like a guy that snuggles up with me, and makes me have more of a reson to smile.
to but it blankly, i need to be wanted and show lots of affection, im a greedy bitch when it comes to love, i always make them feel loved, so why cant i ask for the same treatment, none of this bulshit, you dont give to recieve, in the case of sex, YES YOU DO!
So back to the looks thing, there are reasons why it is important to have a guy with the looks
1) you can actually look at them during sex (obv one!)
2) i feel more turned on by having a hot gym on top, or underneath me
3) not embaressing if they have to meet your friends
but no matter how much i am loking, i am far too critical of any man i look at, i am very hard to please, but when your as gaggin as i am, the standards are slightly lowered.I am even more keen on men with bum fluffed bottoms, the hairy bums is doing it for me, i even asked a Ted at work wether he had a hairy botty, shame he didnt, i would of HAD to have taken him to his stockroom for a full inspection
Right enough sex talk from me today, giving me too many ideas, and i dont wanna have to go down the ex route, or the text boy list this evening!!
I am getting to the stage now where all i can think about is sex, sex with ex's and sex with anyone that gives me a wink or a smile. I know that sounds like i am desparate ( well that is slightly true) there is only so much you can do by yourself on a friday night.
I am constantly on the look out for someone who tickles my fancy so to speak, i am not overly bothered by the looks, as long as i not only get a good seeing to , but that they dont jump out of bed , grab their clothes and leave after the sex! I would like a guy that snuggles up with me, and makes me have more of a reson to smile.
to but it blankly, i need to be wanted and show lots of affection, im a greedy bitch when it comes to love, i always make them feel loved, so why cant i ask for the same treatment, none of this bulshit, you dont give to recieve, in the case of sex, YES YOU DO!
So back to the looks thing, there are reasons why it is important to have a guy with the looks
1) you can actually look at them during sex (obv one!)
2) i feel more turned on by having a hot gym on top, or underneath me
3) not embaressing if they have to meet your friends
but no matter how much i am loking, i am far too critical of any man i look at, i am very hard to please, but when your as gaggin as i am, the standards are slightly lowered.I am even more keen on men with bum fluffed bottoms, the hairy bums is doing it for me, i even asked a Ted at work wether he had a hairy botty, shame he didnt, i would of HAD to have taken him to his stockroom for a full inspection
Right enough sex talk from me today, giving me too many ideas, and i dont wanna have to go down the ex route, or the text boy list this evening!!
Tuesday, 30 January 2007
30th January 2007
I feel i have the stamp "SLAPPER" on my forehead, or "use me and abuse me.... as ill txt anyone"
I seem to have plenty of men up for the "texts" but never anything more, i just seem to be a game of fun and dirty texts to them, something to get them off on before they go back to work or into bed ( alone or with their partners)
Over the last few months i have been rushing into things when i am clearly not ready nor have i found my knight in shinning armour. I dont want to have to look at every guy in the room, wondering whether he would be interested in me, i want to have the approach me, telling me i was all he could look at all evening, to be made to feel like a princess.
Ex's are just not even worth the hassle of going back to, you get all excited , thinking that they have changed their mind, when all they want, again i refer to what i said at the begining, is to be wanked to sleep! I have told them that i want nothing to do with them, but i still dont believe that have got the message!
well 2moro is another day, maybe the man of my dreams is nearer than i think???.......... chance will be a fine thing.
I seem to have plenty of men up for the "texts" but never anything more, i just seem to be a game of fun and dirty texts to them, something to get them off on before they go back to work or into bed ( alone or with their partners)
Over the last few months i have been rushing into things when i am clearly not ready nor have i found my knight in shinning armour. I dont want to have to look at every guy in the room, wondering whether he would be interested in me, i want to have the approach me, telling me i was all he could look at all evening, to be made to feel like a princess.
Ex's are just not even worth the hassle of going back to, you get all excited , thinking that they have changed their mind, when all they want, again i refer to what i said at the begining, is to be wanked to sleep! I have told them that i want nothing to do with them, but i still dont believe that have got the message!
well 2moro is another day, maybe the man of my dreams is nearer than i think???.......... chance will be a fine thing.
Monday, 29 January 2007
29th January, 2007
What a shit day, do you ever just wish people would just be honest with you from the start? I hate seeing people talking away, thinking that i dont know the truth. I dont need to have my ears covered with cotton wool , i can take it you know.
For the last 8 months i have come to work with a smile on my face, knowing that this guy, Mr. Armani, would walk past with a HUGE grin on his face. ( i hope to think the smile measures up all over!)
we would have a giggle and chat about anything and everything, sex to suntans. i prefered to keep the conversation to sex. People would say that way we spoke or argued was like an old married couple..we would both blush.
About 4 weeks ago, my luck changed, a miracle had happened... Mr.Armani was single!! My face lit up, BUT i knew i had to play it cool, didnt wanna rush, he was still emontionally attached...
Everyone said dont rush in, just let him settle down, and there was me thinking, i;ll wait, i didnt wanna blow my chances and make a fool of myself
but after today, people have made a fool out of me!
Being the last to know, its kiinda upseting, regardless of the people involved, everyone knew i liked Mr.Armani, even the girl he ended up bedding over the weekend! But what can i say, sex with someone so soon after a break up, HAS to be rebound!
so what have i learnt from all this?
1) Dont trust everyone! You may say you like someone, but it doesnt stop everyone else going after them too, its a dog eat dog world out there
2) sex is always the best when your drunk, but the next day you probs dont remember much anyways
3) the work place is full of gossip, the whole store knows about it within five mins.....oopss!! lol
well the day goes on, and i am still looking for my mr. right
God i could do with a shag right now lol
For the last 8 months i have come to work with a smile on my face, knowing that this guy, Mr. Armani, would walk past with a HUGE grin on his face. ( i hope to think the smile measures up all over!)
we would have a giggle and chat about anything and everything, sex to suntans. i prefered to keep the conversation to sex. People would say that way we spoke or argued was like an old married couple..we would both blush.
About 4 weeks ago, my luck changed, a miracle had happened... Mr.Armani was single!! My face lit up, BUT i knew i had to play it cool, didnt wanna rush, he was still emontionally attached...
Everyone said dont rush in, just let him settle down, and there was me thinking, i;ll wait, i didnt wanna blow my chances and make a fool of myself
but after today, people have made a fool out of me!
Being the last to know, its kiinda upseting, regardless of the people involved, everyone knew i liked Mr.Armani, even the girl he ended up bedding over the weekend! But what can i say, sex with someone so soon after a break up, HAS to be rebound!
so what have i learnt from all this?
1) Dont trust everyone! You may say you like someone, but it doesnt stop everyone else going after them too, its a dog eat dog world out there
2) sex is always the best when your drunk, but the next day you probs dont remember much anyways
3) the work place is full of gossip, the whole store knows about it within five mins.....oopss!! lol
well the day goes on, and i am still looking for my mr. right
God i could do with a shag right now lol
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