Sorry, i have had another one of those busy weeks, where you darent sit down for more than a minute incase something happens!
Well there were NO CARDS awaiting my face at the door on wednesday, god dam them, i was convinced that the postman had forget to deliver them or that the postman was posting in the afternoon, neither of my thoughts were to be correct.
i had previosuly been on a date on Monday night, and there was me thinking that it went really well, the lack of texts from there after made me think differently. I wish men would say at the end of the evening if they are interested or not, then i know not to waste my time or to bother texting them again. I had even sent him a boob pic of v.day to show him how much i thought of him, and the rude git didnt even bother to reply!! well sod him then, ill take my boobs elsewhere
so v.day was a slightly different day for me, as i took my lovely lady Donna out to the cinema, we had a blast, and i think she is keen to do it again sometime ;) yipppee ive pulled . he he
not alot else to say today, as i am just angry with all men, so that makes life alot easier
Saturday, 17 February 2007
Wednesday, 7 February 2007
Men
Men, i just REALLLLY dont get them!
What is it with taken men? i always seem to be he one that attracts the guys who have ladies, or are engaged. What am i to them? a bit of wank material, i obviously am :( I dont wanna be that, they must be attracted to me but they are going to have to keeo their cocks in their pants, as this pussy aint open!
But my problem is, i guess, that taken men appear to me being more attractive, i guess its cos they are taken , it makes me want them more! God dam it!! it makes it soo hard, i cant help but text them back cheecky, flirty texts! Its all a game to them, but i still cant get my head around that fact, i never learn i just get hurt!
Then the guys that say they like me, i just dont fancy! Maybe i am picky and not seing beyond the looks, but no matter what anyone says EVERYONE looks at the persons face and clothes first, and in those 3 secs you know whether you like them or not. I know thats harsh, but thats life! Men probably think that about me too, and that is, i guess, why i am single!
An ex is still texting me at the moment, we broke up because he started to bug me, and he also had problems with himself. He was ready to be in a relationship, that is all fair enough, i jumped in too and shouldnt have. But now i cant help but text him dirty messages and things that i wanna do with him, but when it comes to the crunch and he asks me to meet him, i cant do it. I know i ended it cos i didnt fancy him, but these thoughts are still in my head.... it must be the lack of sex, makes you want it with anyone
Hugs and Snuggles== these are totally acceptable, it does NOT mean that we are going to get back together, or that i fancy you.... men please take note of this!Every girl loves to be hugged, i am no acception, i love a good warm hug, makes me feel wanted.. but thats all i want it to be
i guess i am just greedy, i forget that they may still have feelings for me, but i cant change mine.
Texting these kinds of messages to people when you are drunk, isnt acceptable either, and i know i am guilty of this crime, and i repent! I will try and not text work collegues or any guy suggestive texts when i am drunk .... can i be forgiven??
xx
What is it with taken men? i always seem to be he one that attracts the guys who have ladies, or are engaged. What am i to them? a bit of wank material, i obviously am :( I dont wanna be that, they must be attracted to me but they are going to have to keeo their cocks in their pants, as this pussy aint open!
But my problem is, i guess, that taken men appear to me being more attractive, i guess its cos they are taken , it makes me want them more! God dam it!! it makes it soo hard, i cant help but text them back cheecky, flirty texts! Its all a game to them, but i still cant get my head around that fact, i never learn i just get hurt!
Then the guys that say they like me, i just dont fancy! Maybe i am picky and not seing beyond the looks, but no matter what anyone says EVERYONE looks at the persons face and clothes first, and in those 3 secs you know whether you like them or not. I know thats harsh, but thats life! Men probably think that about me too, and that is, i guess, why i am single!
An ex is still texting me at the moment, we broke up because he started to bug me, and he also had problems with himself. He was ready to be in a relationship, that is all fair enough, i jumped in too and shouldnt have. But now i cant help but text him dirty messages and things that i wanna do with him, but when it comes to the crunch and he asks me to meet him, i cant do it. I know i ended it cos i didnt fancy him, but these thoughts are still in my head.... it must be the lack of sex, makes you want it with anyone
Hugs and Snuggles== these are totally acceptable, it does NOT mean that we are going to get back together, or that i fancy you.... men please take note of this!Every girl loves to be hugged, i am no acception, i love a good warm hug, makes me feel wanted.. but thats all i want it to be
i guess i am just greedy, i forget that they may still have feelings for me, but i cant change mine.
Texting these kinds of messages to people when you are drunk, isnt acceptable either, and i know i am guilty of this crime, and i repent! I will try and not text work collegues or any guy suggestive texts when i am drunk .... can i be forgiven??
xx
7th February, 2007
ok ok..... i apologise!!
I have had such a busy week that i have been unable to get onto the tinternet.
Well over the last week i have been thinking alot to myself, and looking at the way i have been acting, i really should no better. So what if i havnt had a shag since Dec, it doesnt need to be a bad thing, it gives me time to spend with my mates and enjoy myself. I mean its a good thing really:
1) dont need to shave hairy arms, legs or malaries! (pussy to the non- hilarys)
2) burp and fart as much as i like, i dont give a shoit, i have no one to impress
3)I snog as many men as i like and not have to feel bad about it
LOVES IT!!!
Well back to me feeling annoyed, and ashamed at myself. I have been biggin up last weekend all week, and when the day came i was all prepared ( no i dont mean condoms and lube!!) I had gone shopping during the day with my best buddy, Donna. We have trawled all the shops looking for our hot new outifits, and with luck we did. By GOD did we look hot..... thats the moment it all went down hill...
The evening had arrived, met up with my lads and and Hayley, armed with a bottle of coke and a bottle of vodka, we merrily swigged the bottle of our pre-party spirits. To make sure our stomachs were fully lined, we had a spoons dinner ( cheap and cheerful) but the addition was the bottle of wine, it was all down hill from there.
Most of the evening was a blur to me, Donna and Hayley wernt as drunk as me, so i guess i was the evenings entertainment. Donna was on the pole, so we decided to jump on up to join her, having a wail of a time, Donna left me and Hayley on there. There is one thing i would like to say to all the ladies that wish to poledance, please WAIT until the pole is actually free before jumping up. Me and hayley got pushed off but some slags in short skirts, well hayley actually did literally fall off, and the image is STILL in my head ,and cos of this i gave the girls an ear bashing telling them to bloody ask next time as it was rude! GO ME!!
The night went on, and more bottles of wine were drunk, dear me i was indeed a state! I remember telling Donna that i loved her and that i was gunna be her maid of Honour lol, i think that shocked her. after that the night becomes less memorable ( as in i cant remember)
i remember dancing with Hayley, and a guy dance behind me, i have NO idea whatsoever what he looked like, but we ended up snogging QUITE alot, again i dont remember much, but i know he was a SHIT snog, he tried to finger me but i remember saying to him that i had to go, he mentioned something about a car, but again i have no idea .
The night went on, me getting drunker and drunker.... then i felt alone and sick, told my mate James that i needed to go outside, and i burst into tears
The next thing i know i am at home with James asking me if i need a lift to my house. I dont know How i got into his car nor do i remember falling asleep
FUCKING PISS HEAD!!!!
I have had such a busy week that i have been unable to get onto the tinternet.
Well over the last week i have been thinking alot to myself, and looking at the way i have been acting, i really should no better. So what if i havnt had a shag since Dec, it doesnt need to be a bad thing, it gives me time to spend with my mates and enjoy myself. I mean its a good thing really:
1) dont need to shave hairy arms, legs or malaries! (pussy to the non- hilarys)
2) burp and fart as much as i like, i dont give a shoit, i have no one to impress
3)I snog as many men as i like and not have to feel bad about it
LOVES IT!!!
Well back to me feeling annoyed, and ashamed at myself. I have been biggin up last weekend all week, and when the day came i was all prepared ( no i dont mean condoms and lube!!) I had gone shopping during the day with my best buddy, Donna. We have trawled all the shops looking for our hot new outifits, and with luck we did. By GOD did we look hot..... thats the moment it all went down hill...
The evening had arrived, met up with my lads and and Hayley, armed with a bottle of coke and a bottle of vodka, we merrily swigged the bottle of our pre-party spirits. To make sure our stomachs were fully lined, we had a spoons dinner ( cheap and cheerful) but the addition was the bottle of wine, it was all down hill from there.
Most of the evening was a blur to me, Donna and Hayley wernt as drunk as me, so i guess i was the evenings entertainment. Donna was on the pole, so we decided to jump on up to join her, having a wail of a time, Donna left me and Hayley on there. There is one thing i would like to say to all the ladies that wish to poledance, please WAIT until the pole is actually free before jumping up. Me and hayley got pushed off but some slags in short skirts, well hayley actually did literally fall off, and the image is STILL in my head ,and cos of this i gave the girls an ear bashing telling them to bloody ask next time as it was rude! GO ME!!
The night went on, and more bottles of wine were drunk, dear me i was indeed a state! I remember telling Donna that i loved her and that i was gunna be her maid of Honour lol, i think that shocked her. after that the night becomes less memorable ( as in i cant remember)
i remember dancing with Hayley, and a guy dance behind me, i have NO idea whatsoever what he looked like, but we ended up snogging QUITE alot, again i dont remember much, but i know he was a SHIT snog, he tried to finger me but i remember saying to him that i had to go, he mentioned something about a car, but again i have no idea .
The night went on, me getting drunker and drunker.... then i felt alone and sick, told my mate James that i needed to go outside, and i burst into tears
The next thing i know i am at home with James asking me if i need a lift to my house. I dont know How i got into his car nor do i remember falling asleep
FUCKING PISS HEAD!!!!
Thursday, 1 February 2007
1st February
Pinch, Punch, first of the month... and all that crap!!
Having a shit day today, yes i know all i seem to mention is sex, but going without it , is like being told that your allergic to choccies!! I cant do that!
Work is going really well, but its hard to concentrate when i can see Mr. Armani from across the path, he is still as Gorgeous as ever and by GOD is it hard to be angry with him.
I am very tempted to start doing a sports class in the evening to make me take my mind of the lack of sex in my life, maybe pole dancing will do the trick. it will be the biggest pole i have felt for a while. I think its all down to the fact that i am not confident in myself,and that shows on the outside, men must be able to see this...
so.... i am going to have to change, god knows how ill be able to actually "pretend" i am happy and confident, when i am really supposed to be like that... eek
so from now on, new month and new moi
ok guys, no sex on the first date , a hug and a kiss on the cheek will do fine
xx
Having a shit day today, yes i know all i seem to mention is sex, but going without it , is like being told that your allergic to choccies!! I cant do that!
Work is going really well, but its hard to concentrate when i can see Mr. Armani from across the path, he is still as Gorgeous as ever and by GOD is it hard to be angry with him.
I am very tempted to start doing a sports class in the evening to make me take my mind of the lack of sex in my life, maybe pole dancing will do the trick. it will be the biggest pole i have felt for a while. I think its all down to the fact that i am not confident in myself,and that shows on the outside, men must be able to see this...
so.... i am going to have to change, god knows how ill be able to actually "pretend" i am happy and confident, when i am really supposed to be like that... eek
so from now on, new month and new moi
ok guys, no sex on the first date , a hug and a kiss on the cheek will do fine
xx
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